tis the season to....talk about babies?

Wow...speaking of the randome craziness of life...Jesse is suddenly a father. Nuts. And sounds like life is stressful but under control....baby, mortgage, promotion. Wow.

And speaking of babies, the ongoing camel-timbuctoo snafu has taken a turn for reality as we finally managed to "talk".....and that sure was hard....I think we've gotten really comfortable just loving to be with each other...and always knowing we're playing against time, just don't talk about some things...but we always knew we had to talk...and we talked. And nothing was resolved...

it breaks down sorta like this, I think:

• Timbuctoo loves his girlfriend but is unfulfilled
• Timbuctoo has a nice little future all laid out with current girlfriend
• Timbuctoo really likes the Camel but the Camel comes with no future guarantees
• Timbuctoo is scared to sacrifice something ok and sure for something great but uncertain
• Timbuctoo wants to be a daddy sometime soon and doesn't think the Camel has babies on the radar any time soon.
• Camel hasn't thought about babies and is massively sad at the thought of Timbuctoo staying with his gf just because he doesn't want to be an old dad AND at the thought of Timbuctoo not being with her because he doesn't want to be an old dad.

Confusion....and to think we haven't even been on a first date yet!