sometimes everything is wrong

Sigh. I know that I shouldn't always feel blah. I know that I shoudl write about social issues or about injustice or beauty. But I guess I'm just too superficial. I just want to talk about me and all my hangups.

Today my hangups are mostly me. There are three things that I'm unhappy with about me, really:

My diet
My lack of excercise
Biting my nails

So tommorrow I'm gonna get my nails done and see how that works out....really part of my concern is how chipped and worn my teeth are getting. I think they look awful. It kills me to look in the mirror and see what I've done. And on top of that my hands look ugly AND often hurt from me biting them. It's just too much. Why don't I have any self control?

I hate that. I'm trying but every day I fail and one day I'm going to wake up and I'm not going to be young and healthy anymore. It's so easy to take your health for granted...and I have to be more careful than other people and I really don't feel like I am because people are always telling me I am healthy. I look good. My tests always come back good. Yet I know that my habits are not healthy. Sigh. It really is time for a change. I just hope I can do it. Sigh.