Walking into the sun

So about ten minutes ago I was walking home and about half a block away, my mp3 player was playing White Shadows by Coldplay and the sun was falling down behind the apartment building in front of me...and the world took on an eerie sort of taste....like I need to sort things.

Today Cody msn'ed me to see if I wanted to go for ice cream after he finished work...which I was all up for...but then at 5:19 he phoned and was like "it's crappy outside, how about we go tommorrow or something" and of course I was like whatever.....but he said he wanted to go to his parent's and do laundry....which is odd since I know he did laundry three days ago. Boys are weird...anyway, I just felt sorta blah about the whole thing.

Last night Stevo confronted me about whether Cody and I were dating and I said "I don't know" and he was all worried about his friends dating....whatever.....

I feel fat. I feel bitchy. I feel like I need an exercise regime. I feel like drinking a pitcher with Timbuctoo and yakking...I feel like I want to be left alone....well that's what's on my mind....I feel fat, I feel poor, I feel bitchy...