Point of Fact

The thing about drinking is that I always feel like a Grade A idiot the next day. I've been thinking about my behavior last night and it occurs to me that there was a great deal of me holding Cody's hand that really need not have been done. I mean we were sitting ACROSS the table...and I was holding his hand. I mean really, how ridiculous. How embarrassing. I hate that.

Timbuctoo was supposed to come out last night and I'm REALLY glad he didn't. If he had I'm not sure my behavior would have been different, and that would have been really unfair to him. He's very tactful with his PDAs and clearly I was not last night...so that may very well have been very hurtful towards him....and I haven't told him about Cody yet, so it would have been like a hit from a bat in the dark....though I don't really know that it WOULD have hurt him. He either wouldn't have cared at all and been happy for me or he'd have been very jealous. Well, glad I didn't have to deal with it.

Arg. I definitely leaned over and kissed Cody on the cheek at the table yesterday..I'm insufferable. Ack. I can't stand me right now. Ack.

But Cody still seems to be interested...though I'm consistently surprised by this fact. I'm ALWAYS drunk when I'm around him it seems. How embarrassing. Ah well....the walk home last night was awesome. It was pouring.... :) ....he looked really cute with his hair wet. Ack.