day by day
Today wasn't a great day. In fact it started pretty bad as I didn't drag myself out of bed until 11:30am. Disgraceful. But it ended nicely....me and BlondNS rented a movie and watched the Habs game. Good times...except the Habs lost. Boo.
Supervisor2 and I chatted today. He is such a fantastic human being. Really, I can't say it enough. We were talking and he's still trying to cheer me up about this stupid SSHRC business. Which is sweet and much appreciated. And he asked me how money was and I sort of shyly told him. He's really good about probing just enough to make me feel comfortable telling him...like he wants to know and I'm not just complaining. Anyway, I desperately feel guilty about him giving me money, even if I do need it ....cuz of course I could spend less on a lot of things....but he asked how much money I'd have for the summer, and said "that's not enough. I'll see what I can do." It's not even that he will help me out...it's that he takes the time to care about whether I need to be helped out. I guess that its been a long time since I had a mentor....and I just feel like I'm going to burst with appreciation.
On the other hand last night was quite the night. Timbuctoo invited me and my posse to watch hockey with him and his posse at the pub. And we had a rocking good time....and yes, Timbuctoo and I did go home together...sigh. But I'm finding it hard to feel bad right now. I mean we've talked extensively about this and he says things like "I hate that I have to leave you" and "I know we shouldn't but we obviously have to accept that we do"....none of those things make any of this ok, but the truth is I feel loved. And that is a nice feeling.
Supervisor2 and I chatted today. He is such a fantastic human being. Really, I can't say it enough. We were talking and he's still trying to cheer me up about this stupid SSHRC business. Which is sweet and much appreciated. And he asked me how money was and I sort of shyly told him. He's really good about probing just enough to make me feel comfortable telling him...like he wants to know and I'm not just complaining. Anyway, I desperately feel guilty about him giving me money, even if I do need it ....cuz of course I could spend less on a lot of things....but he asked how much money I'd have for the summer, and said "that's not enough. I'll see what I can do." It's not even that he will help me out...it's that he takes the time to care about whether I need to be helped out. I guess that its been a long time since I had a mentor....and I just feel like I'm going to burst with appreciation.
On the other hand last night was quite the night. Timbuctoo invited me and my posse to watch hockey with him and his posse at the pub. And we had a rocking good time....and yes, Timbuctoo and I did go home together...sigh. But I'm finding it hard to feel bad right now. I mean we've talked extensively about this and he says things like "I hate that I have to leave you" and "I know we shouldn't but we obviously have to accept that we do"....none of those things make any of this ok, but the truth is I feel loved. And that is a nice feeling.
posted by Camel at 11:27 p.m.
1 Comments:
I feel for you over SSHRC... It's been a hard month for many, many of us grad students out there.
Just as we start going onto crummy summer funding (which for most is none), we find out that the guy in the next office won $35,000, and we are still broke.
It's a tough season.
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