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Here goes. I'm feeling much less terrible today. Mostly because of Roomie...she probably has no idea, but she is definitely responsible for me getting the "move on"...so anyway, I'll start with the beginning instead of the end...God I hope some day I read this and am amused.
So, I'd suspected but it was confirmed this week that I'm getting $2000 less for TAing than expected...this was intensely depressing.
Things with Cody were stupidly, unmanageably awkward in my mind...I find I have a really hard time NOT thinking about him...typical female obsessing...it nearly drove me mad this weekend thinking about how Cody was so broken up over Roomie and wasn't even interested enough in me to ask me out on a real date...I kept looking at the lyrics of this song that he had put on his msn name when they broke up and it nearly tore me apart to think about how he was feeling then and now....I think part of the reason was it became obvious that he'd taken ME off his msn...so now I had NO idea what he was thinking...anyway, I started working on imposing a "thinking about him" ban but was only marginally successful...even though I saw him Friday at the orientation concert, went up to him and chatted like nothing had ever happened...it was brief...
Anyway, the thing that threw me over the edge (this has been completely unchronological) was on Friday when we discovered that all the data I collected this summer was useless due to a programming error by our hired programmer...ARG!!!!!!That was a lot of work and means a lot more work...but I handled it well. My supervisor offered to buy me a beer...he felt pretty bad for me...but it was one of those things...you know...I shoulda looked at the data before we got all those subjects (50)..but it's so complicated getting the data into readable form that it's understandable..and I'd been rushing to finish before my trip...and it was my first study using that equipment so I was seriously overloaded. Bah.
Anyway, resolution: supervisor indicated he'd be giving me some money so that should help my cash issue..even though I hate to get money for nothing...but he says he likes it better this way cuz then I have more time to spend researching rather than working...
resolution part 2: I was telling my mum about Cody. I'm really nervous about talking about him around Roomie...but she heard and very clearly shouted that he was someting not nice and that it was all his fault. I love her...
Anyway, two other things drove me mad this week, like nails in a coffin...1. Junior and worrying about his crush...but I think we found him someone....which is good cuz I've been missing hanging out with him...So Saturday night when I really, really didn't want to go we ended up drinking with his roommate and watching the Empire Strikes Back. Perfect friend fun.
2. Roomie might be moving out in December...she was really clear about it not being because of me...but I still feel sad.
This minute I feel pretty good though.
So, I'd suspected but it was confirmed this week that I'm getting $2000 less for TAing than expected...this was intensely depressing.
Things with Cody were stupidly, unmanageably awkward in my mind...I find I have a really hard time NOT thinking about him...typical female obsessing...it nearly drove me mad this weekend thinking about how Cody was so broken up over Roomie and wasn't even interested enough in me to ask me out on a real date...I kept looking at the lyrics of this song that he had put on his msn name when they broke up and it nearly tore me apart to think about how he was feeling then and now....I think part of the reason was it became obvious that he'd taken ME off his msn...so now I had NO idea what he was thinking...anyway, I started working on imposing a "thinking about him" ban but was only marginally successful...even though I saw him Friday at the orientation concert, went up to him and chatted like nothing had ever happened...it was brief...
Anyway, the thing that threw me over the edge (this has been completely unchronological) was on Friday when we discovered that all the data I collected this summer was useless due to a programming error by our hired programmer...ARG!!!!!!That was a lot of work and means a lot more work...but I handled it well. My supervisor offered to buy me a beer...he felt pretty bad for me...but it was one of those things...you know...I shoulda looked at the data before we got all those subjects (50)..but it's so complicated getting the data into readable form that it's understandable..and I'd been rushing to finish before my trip...and it was my first study using that equipment so I was seriously overloaded. Bah.
Anyway, resolution: supervisor indicated he'd be giving me some money so that should help my cash issue..even though I hate to get money for nothing...but he says he likes it better this way cuz then I have more time to spend researching rather than working...
resolution part 2: I was telling my mum about Cody. I'm really nervous about talking about him around Roomie...but she heard and very clearly shouted that he was someting not nice and that it was all his fault. I love her...
Anyway, two other things drove me mad this week, like nails in a coffin...1. Junior and worrying about his crush...but I think we found him someone....which is good cuz I've been missing hanging out with him...So Saturday night when I really, really didn't want to go we ended up drinking with his roommate and watching the Empire Strikes Back. Perfect friend fun.
2. Roomie might be moving out in December...she was really clear about it not being because of me...but I still feel sad.
This minute I feel pretty good though.
posted by Camel at 8:49 p.m.
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