none of your business
ever notice how some days you just want to be angry? I think today was one of those days...apparently it started last night with me saying "I'm angry" with absolutely no explanation or meritous behavior. Today, though, I had at least SOME merit....
Partially it's cuz I finally went into a sports store and looked into getting a punching bag. I found a 70-pounder that the salesman said he thought would be fine for my apartment...as long as I used it during the day...and it was way less expensive than I expected...I want it SO bad...if my ceiling can support it, I'm so buying it and to hell with the money. I have wanted one for YEARS. So that got me singing this ol' Salt n' Pepa tune..."none of your business"...quality...from the "Miss Congeniality" soundtrack...first time I realized I could put a bag in my apartment as opposed to in a house...wicked.
And then I got annoyed with Cody....well, frustrated is more like it...excessive thought leading to annoyance...I finally had a good talk with Q about him...he says I need to be more patient and that my behavior is exacerbating Cody's shyness...ok. fair nuf. But I still don't know what to do. And then Cody msn'ed and asked me if I had plans for the night...and I said, "not really, no" and waited...and waited...and waited...and finally said me and countryGirl were thinking about doing a movie...and waited and waited...nothing....he told me he had to go to work and would talk to me later...this is like 4:30pm.
So I work all day...and wait... and wait...working and working...like a good girl...finally around 11pm i hear from him...I've already msn'ed to see if he wants to get some food when he gets home so he ought to have seen that....but no reference....nothing....and nothing...more chatting...nothing....so eventually I finish working (well, can't work anymore) ...and msn him that I'm getting food and going to countryGirl's, does he want to come? no...tired.
For pete's sake.
One other notable is that I selfishly mentioned my frustration to Junior on the walk home today. Probably not nice to do...but he's my friend. And I wanted to talk about it. It was selfish of me.
And in the world of the outrageous......Timbuctoo! Oh yes, back. He FINALLY appeared on msn to chat today....the gf being away....and let me know WHY he and his pals hadn't joined us on Wednesday. It's cuz this BRILLIANT friend of his told his gf I was "all over him" at a pub. I was there...I wasn't. Good thing she's never been to a bbq. Apparently the gf's attitude was in high gear that night. I was oblivious. Good for me. Timbuctoo in a "stroke" of brilliance (note the sarcasm) told gf that i didn't know he had a gf at the time, that I was just drunk and that she couldn't be cool to me because he and I are friends...brilliant. Flimsy lie. Why didn't he just stay "no she wasn't" or "she's like that with everyone"? well, whatever...
Anyway, so we had a good talk. Looks like he IS thinking about what's going on in their relationship which is a good sign for him....I don't feel any need to worry about an "us"...I told him of my terror that he'd leave the gf and expect me to be with him and he just laughed...said he's not crazy...which is good.
And in true instinctual form, I learned that I was right to be suspicious about him asking his team manager to call me to play, rather than he calling me....it was cuz he'd interpreted my warning about me dating Cody as a "back off"...silly rabbit...but I sure was glad to get out my reasoning....
Finally, he was going out and wanted me to come out. I didn't. Good for me. I don't think it would have been a good idea. Gf and he's out with me? Bad. I woulda, maybe if Cody had come...I do want him to meet him and pass judgement...but I could see bad things happening....just that I've neatly boxed my feelings for Timbuctoo and I don't want to reopen that... for both our sake.
Phew. Long day.
Partially it's cuz I finally went into a sports store and looked into getting a punching bag. I found a 70-pounder that the salesman said he thought would be fine for my apartment...as long as I used it during the day...and it was way less expensive than I expected...I want it SO bad...if my ceiling can support it, I'm so buying it and to hell with the money. I have wanted one for YEARS. So that got me singing this ol' Salt n' Pepa tune..."none of your business"...quality...from the "Miss Congeniality" soundtrack...first time I realized I could put a bag in my apartment as opposed to in a house...wicked.
And then I got annoyed with Cody....well, frustrated is more like it...excessive thought leading to annoyance...I finally had a good talk with Q about him...he says I need to be more patient and that my behavior is exacerbating Cody's shyness...ok. fair nuf. But I still don't know what to do. And then Cody msn'ed and asked me if I had plans for the night...and I said, "not really, no" and waited...and waited...and waited...and finally said me and countryGirl were thinking about doing a movie...and waited and waited...nothing....he told me he had to go to work and would talk to me later...this is like 4:30pm.
So I work all day...and wait... and wait...working and working...like a good girl...finally around 11pm i hear from him...I've already msn'ed to see if he wants to get some food when he gets home so he ought to have seen that....but no reference....nothing....and nothing...more chatting...nothing....so eventually I finish working (well, can't work anymore) ...and msn him that I'm getting food and going to countryGirl's, does he want to come? no...tired.
For pete's sake.
One other notable is that I selfishly mentioned my frustration to Junior on the walk home today. Probably not nice to do...but he's my friend. And I wanted to talk about it. It was selfish of me.
And in the world of the outrageous......Timbuctoo! Oh yes, back. He FINALLY appeared on msn to chat today....the gf being away....and let me know WHY he and his pals hadn't joined us on Wednesday. It's cuz this BRILLIANT friend of his told his gf I was "all over him" at a pub. I was there...I wasn't. Good thing she's never been to a bbq. Apparently the gf's attitude was in high gear that night. I was oblivious. Good for me. Timbuctoo in a "stroke" of brilliance (note the sarcasm) told gf that i didn't know he had a gf at the time, that I was just drunk and that she couldn't be cool to me because he and I are friends...brilliant. Flimsy lie. Why didn't he just stay "no she wasn't" or "she's like that with everyone"? well, whatever...
Anyway, so we had a good talk. Looks like he IS thinking about what's going on in their relationship which is a good sign for him....I don't feel any need to worry about an "us"...I told him of my terror that he'd leave the gf and expect me to be with him and he just laughed...said he's not crazy...which is good.
And in true instinctual form, I learned that I was right to be suspicious about him asking his team manager to call me to play, rather than he calling me....it was cuz he'd interpreted my warning about me dating Cody as a "back off"...silly rabbit...but I sure was glad to get out my reasoning....
Finally, he was going out and wanted me to come out. I didn't. Good for me. I don't think it would have been a good idea. Gf and he's out with me? Bad. I woulda, maybe if Cody had come...I do want him to meet him and pass judgement...but I could see bad things happening....just that I've neatly boxed my feelings for Timbuctoo and I don't want to reopen that... for both our sake.
Phew. Long day.
posted by Camel at 2:37 a.m.
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