Slings and arrows

Suddenly I find myself feeling frustrated. Roomie just got home..I'd like to point out that she did not invite me to the cabin with her. Not that that that upsets me, really, i can appreciate that she needs camel-free time. But she came home and just seemed to be stomping around the apartment. I mean, she was just putting her stuff away and she tidied up a few things...but I felt like she was kinda throwing it in my face...like I should be doing something other than talking on the phone. I'm sure it's just me being neurotic, but it certainly made me take pause. I mean, I know that when I get home from a trip, I like to get things put away asap...and probably act exactly the same...but I definitely heard her sigh of frustration as she put away the dishes I washed today. And sure enough, there's like four or five glasses she didn't feel I had cleaned properly...but I looked at them and really only found anything on one of them...and she didn't say anything to me, so I don't know. On top of that, today when I was doing dishes I noticed that her Bodem was cracked. I told her as soon as she got home. I don't know if I broke it or not, though there's a good chance it was me....anyway...I feel ill at ease...

Also, yesterday I found myself chatting yet again with the firefighter..until 5am. Seriously...come on Camel. Anyway, my last post from yesterday apparently was the last thing I had copied..and I went to send him a link, but managed to 1. not copy the link 2. hit send before noticing that I had copied my last post. HOW EMBARRASSING!!!#@*#*(&*#($&*()$"EMBARRASSING!!!#@*#*(&*#($&*()$! He wasn't too concerned...I think he was more flattered that I'd noticed than anything...but I still felt like I had taken off my shirt in front of a room full of professors....irretrievably exposed.

And...the worst thing of my day was the discovery that my Outlook Express account somehow got deleted and I lost ALL the email that I had saved from my old university account...I was waiting till I had time to go through it...but now it is irretrievable gone. I am SOOOOOOO pissed. I mean it's probably my fault since I fooled around with my computer alot over the last few months...but I'm still pissed....all of the emails form Jesse and anyone else important. &*(&)*&&)*)!@#!

Well...moving on. My best friend seems well on her way to obtaining a boyfriend. YOU GO GIRL!!!!! I really, really, really hope it works out for her. She deserves a nice guy sooooooo much.