if only life were like the movies

I'm feeling rather blah about life right now...so I'm not being productive which makes me feel more blah.

Here's why. I've been busy trying to get things done for my webmaster job and for my research, and so I haven't had time to study any arabic...which is making me want to call Lebanon even less...which is making me feel awful. And it seems that the only time that Mr. M calls is when I'm asleep and I have yet to actually get to the phone before it stops ringing...I guess I should send him an email, but I just don't seem to have the get up and go. Mostly because we really have nothing to talk about. Grr.

Also, I'm realizing that I am such a drama queen that I need to take stock of my life. I am currently fighting a crush on a boy who is so completely unavailable that I shouldn't even know his name. I know he's been with his girlfriend for years...and Pop said something that made me more sure that he's not hitting on me...he said that after you've been with someone a long time you get to know them and so things that appear dangerous to strangers don't seem dangerous to you because you trust them and know what is ACTUALLY dangerous behavior. Thank goodness for Pop and his down-to-earthedness. On the other hand, I chatted on msn with Timbuctoo for like two hours last night. And it was a pretty deep conversation. He was pretty complimentary, but not in a creepy way...though I can't say it was in a completely-not-hitting-on-me way either. Grr.

I went to see Mr. & Mrs. Smith tonight. Something I've been attempting for ages. Last week when out with Cody and pals, one of Cody's pals said he would like to go and had a car, so we made loose plans to go sometime this week. Then one of my new girl friends said she'd be interested in going so tonight I messaged and phoned Cody about it. And of course invited him too. Cuz really, he's the one I wanted to see, though I'm supressing that fact. Anyway, I of course invited roomie too, but she was totally uninterested in the movie. But I felt weird telling her who I was going with and it was pretty much the same time as she was raging about a friend of hers in C-town who was now dating a guy she had dated and how mad she was about the snafu. Yikes. He's really cute, really articulate, and really nice....he msn'ed me when we got home from the movie and I actually msn'ed with him for like an hour and a half yesterday. Though he doesn't quite hold a candle to Timbuctoo....he's better looking but not a better athlete, I'm sure. Grr..

So I think this means I'm pathetic. Grr. I mean seriously, I need to just move on.