Saturday, February 12, 2005

more about boys

I know, it's all I talk about, but I gotta be me...it's top of my thoughts too.

Today Smiley and I went to a Valentine's Day party featuring a swing band. It was totally fun...I was interminably embarrassed though. We were by far the best dancers there, though everyone there besides us was over 60...But I was soooo self conscious because I am not yet comfortable with my ability to swing dance..and Smiley is SO good. So the first hour or so I spent blushing uncomfortably and hoping I didn't look dumb. Two beers later, things were better and I started to come into my own..anyway, I ended up having fun. And at least half the people there took the time to tell us we looked great. So that was nice.

But about boys. Smiley had to endure my musings about the Firefighter who I computer-phone chatted with for like two hours today...roomie and Smiley both said that this is getting serious. Smiley also mused that he didnt' think I wanted a boyfriend and that my infatuation with the Firefighter stems from his status as a "safe" target of my affection. He's probably right. But that doesn't change the fact that I really like him. Especially since I have been thinking about NOT dating other guys cuz I don't want end my "relationship" with the Firefighter. Sigh.

So the question is, do I start trying to meet guys or just let things be. I mean, I'm happy, if deluded. Yeesh.

1 Comments:

Blogger Sou said...

Boys. You can't live with'em and you can't live without'em! So what's a girl to do?!!!

Camel, hun, if you're happy, then that's what matters. Your happiness is essential, what's the point of "meeting other guys or letting things be" if you aren't going to be happy?!!

12:32 a.m.  

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