going going gone

So I'm seeing a pattern in my life. When I buy things that I don't feel I NEED (like really really can't live without) or when I don't buy the things I do need at the cheapest or best deal, I feel guilty.

One the one hand, that's perfectly ok. I should definitely not be spending money I don't have (I spent $70 on my VISA today - bad bad camel). But on the other hand, depriving myself of the things that make me happy is not a great idea either.....what I really need is to learn to reward myself. To buy things not impulsively, but because I did something that deserves a reward, like finish some project. I've always had trouble doing that.

Anyway, despite the guilt. I am thrilled with today's purchases...including a wonderful oil burner and some wonderful wonderful Oceanus oil....I love the Body Shop. I also saw some truly excellent smelling massage oil (coconut goodness) but I showed at least that much restraint. Though I was feeling highly sorry that the Firefighter is all the way across the country....

I bought meat for the first the first time in forever...I mean real meat, not sausage or anything processed like that. I bought chicken breasts...which I never eat...I don't understand how people love chicken so much...it's tasteless and dry...even when you barely cook it past safe to eat. Anyway, drenched in sauce it's not bad...I found butter chicken sauce so I made butter chicken with basmati rice. YUM!