let's be honest...it's Valentine's Day
This blog is supposed to be about saying those things that I'm not comfortable admiting to my friends...so here are some:
I was too tired to feel happy or sad today...but at 11:38 I am sad that the Firefighter might not wish me Happy VD and that he may be out enjoying it with some other girl. I did wonder all day if he would do anything special for me. I admit it. Silly, I know.
Jesse messaged me today to say he was in Montreal this weekend. I am disappointed but relieved that he didn't invite me and that he's not coming in the future. I have decided I may need to let go of Jesse (yet again, I know). Somehow, these past few days have also lessened my feeling for the Firefighter..perhaps it's reality kicking in.
I still feel guilty about the houseboating trip.
I get annoyed with roomie a lot. And then imagine conversations that make me angry and stressed. Bad idea. Things are going well with roomie. Though I am still feeling left out that I haven't been invited out to hang with her other psych friends...more and more of our mutual acquaintances seem to be at these parties...
I feel fat. I have set my screensaver to show My Pictures and I am disappointed in most of them. Despite knowing intellectually that my weight is ok...I still feel pigish...most likely I am feeling the effects of a long winter...but it sure would be nice to be able to afford to take Tae Kwon Do again...
I have spent way too much money recently. I have not been eating leftovers asap which is leading me to throw away food. Bad girl.
I want to go to sleep but I am hoping to chat with the Firefighter tonight...so instead I will study for my midterm on Thursday. Go matrix algebra...superstar. I may have done really well in my Self class.
I was too tired to feel happy or sad today...but at 11:38 I am sad that the Firefighter might not wish me Happy VD and that he may be out enjoying it with some other girl. I did wonder all day if he would do anything special for me. I admit it. Silly, I know.
Jesse messaged me today to say he was in Montreal this weekend. I am disappointed but relieved that he didn't invite me and that he's not coming in the future. I have decided I may need to let go of Jesse (yet again, I know). Somehow, these past few days have also lessened my feeling for the Firefighter..perhaps it's reality kicking in.
I still feel guilty about the houseboating trip.
I get annoyed with roomie a lot. And then imagine conversations that make me angry and stressed. Bad idea. Things are going well with roomie. Though I am still feeling left out that I haven't been invited out to hang with her other psych friends...more and more of our mutual acquaintances seem to be at these parties...
I feel fat. I have set my screensaver to show My Pictures and I am disappointed in most of them. Despite knowing intellectually that my weight is ok...I still feel pigish...most likely I am feeling the effects of a long winter...but it sure would be nice to be able to afford to take Tae Kwon Do again...
I have spent way too much money recently. I have not been eating leftovers asap which is leading me to throw away food. Bad girl.
I want to go to sleep but I am hoping to chat with the Firefighter tonight...so instead I will study for my midterm on Thursday. Go matrix algebra...superstar. I may have done really well in my Self class.
posted by Camel at 11:38 p.m.
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