last night

I almost lost my mind yesterday. Every now and then anxiety builds up and it is terrifying how absolutely incapable of motion one human being can become. I walked into Smiley's office yesterday and pretty much just sat their, incapabale of decisions or action. It was awful.

I can't even begin to imagine what it must be like to have an anxiety disorder. I mean I'm under a lot of stress, and I get anxious about failure, etc., but what would it be like to be debilitated by anxiety on a regular basis. Any anxiety itself is such an unpleasant state that it's unbearable. I find myself seeking desperately my closest friends to simply be around me to reassure me that I will survive. Imagine being anxious and alone!

I'm so lucky to have Smiley, best friend, Q, K1 and K2. ....all my friends online....I sincerely hope that I'm there for them as much as they are for me....