Candy to my soul

Today was a good day. It didn't feel bad. I didn't really work on the things that are at the top of my priority list, but I did work on other things...accomplished other things. And it felt so good.

I dunno, the loneliness just went away for a while and it feels good....

There are just so many things in this world to feel bad about....sometimes I can't believe I ever feel good...but I do. I do.

I must remember to tell my mom I love her. It's gotten hard to do. I used to say it so easily and now it sits in my throat, trapped. I hate that. She needs to hear it. She needs to know that I love her and that I don't just think she's a failure...that I love her anyway and it doesn't matter...I'll always love her endlessly....but it just doesn't come...and I wonder who I'm becoming.