Just when the night is totally depressing
So I think tonight has to come out on the plus side....surprisingly enough.
I hit the campus pub tonight, still feeling unattracive and fat based on last night...but it, of course, didn't matter given I was to be drinking with the crew...and I wasn't dressed as carefully as usual...but apparently that did NOT matter.
So, I started the night chatting with my pals...until roomie subtly dropped the fact that her and Cody were having dinner ("don't be mad")...ok, whatever....he's picking you up here?...no worries...we're cool. If only I thought roomie didn't have ulterior motives...eventually he made it out....and we all sat and drank..he, me, her and about six others...we had to go to Margaritaville of course...cuz it was Wednesday night...and that was cool...until......roomie asks Cody...."so I'm going home,....are you going home or out with camel"....fuck roomie...thanks. Things between us have been cool...thanks for making them awkward...anyway...we all headed out...and I didn't say a word to Cody for the rest of the night...not that I said a whole bunch bfoere then...but at least we were interacting as we interacted with the group...whatever....he stayed very much away from me the whole night, other than the walk TO Margaritaville where he was somehow was on a bike and rode alongside me and SuperHost who were having a chat about best friend...Anyway, he didn't even look in my direction once we hit Margaritaville, though, I think...so I knew better. he left early without a word to us...I watched him go....I was sad. I do like him...as a person....he's fun and funny...and I was sad. damn.
Although I did feel rather vindicated by each and every friend that I told that we weren't seeing each other any more...they all said "WHAT?" and in response to, "I liked him, he didn't like me" they said "Coulda fooled me"....so that was cool.
Eventually i decided i was leaving. Junior and lilM (the girl he now likes instead of me, yay!) said they wanted to go too...which was cool except I live past her so he didn't reallly walk her home...anyway...we talked.,...it was good. I let him put his arm around me when I was cold...I think our friendship is back to where it should be....I can't tell yo how happy that makes me...I just hope I'm not wrong and leading him on....
Then I got home. And there was an email from superD. OMIGOD. I'm pretty sure I've been dreaming about this for months. WOW. It just was an apology for not coming to chat with me again later yesterday....but seriously. I WAS sad. But now I'm giddy. &*(&*&)($##$@ boys. Sigh.
The consensus in my head is that I've still got it pretty bad for Cody. Every time I see him I want him. But I think he still wants roomie...so I HAVE to get over him. And crushing on SuperD works...even if he has a gf so I'm gonna run with it.
God help me.
I hit the campus pub tonight, still feeling unattracive and fat based on last night...but it, of course, didn't matter given I was to be drinking with the crew...and I wasn't dressed as carefully as usual...but apparently that did NOT matter.
So, I started the night chatting with my pals...until roomie subtly dropped the fact that her and Cody were having dinner ("don't be mad")...ok, whatever....he's picking you up here?...no worries...we're cool. If only I thought roomie didn't have ulterior motives...eventually he made it out....and we all sat and drank..he, me, her and about six others...we had to go to Margaritaville of course...cuz it was Wednesday night...and that was cool...until......roomie asks Cody...."so I'm going home,....are you going home or out with camel"....fuck roomie...thanks. Things between us have been cool...thanks for making them awkward...anyway...we all headed out...and I didn't say a word to Cody for the rest of the night...not that I said a whole bunch bfoere then...but at least we were interacting as we interacted with the group...whatever....he stayed very much away from me the whole night, other than the walk TO Margaritaville where he was somehow was on a bike and rode alongside me and SuperHost who were having a chat about best friend...Anyway, he didn't even look in my direction once we hit Margaritaville, though, I think...so I knew better. he left early without a word to us...I watched him go....I was sad. I do like him...as a person....he's fun and funny...and I was sad. damn.
Although I did feel rather vindicated by each and every friend that I told that we weren't seeing each other any more...they all said "WHAT?" and in response to, "I liked him, he didn't like me" they said "Coulda fooled me"....so that was cool.
Eventually i decided i was leaving. Junior and lilM (the girl he now likes instead of me, yay!) said they wanted to go too...which was cool except I live past her so he didn't reallly walk her home...anyway...we talked.,...it was good. I let him put his arm around me when I was cold...I think our friendship is back to where it should be....I can't tell yo how happy that makes me...I just hope I'm not wrong and leading him on....
Then I got home. And there was an email from superD. OMIGOD. I'm pretty sure I've been dreaming about this for months. WOW. It just was an apology for not coming to chat with me again later yesterday....but seriously. I WAS sad. But now I'm giddy. &*(&*&)($##$@ boys. Sigh.
The consensus in my head is that I've still got it pretty bad for Cody. Every time I see him I want him. But I think he still wants roomie...so I HAVE to get over him. And crushing on SuperD works...even if he has a gf so I'm gonna run with it.
God help me.
posted by Camel at 12:51 a.m.
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