Finally
So I finally had to give up on IE and download Firefox. So far so good. I actually like the layout better....less fluff. AND it will open links properly (like this text entry box)...my computer is driving me nuts....ok. Whatever.
Today and yesterday were stressful but good. I am finally finished my stats paper. Phew. But I am feeling extremely guilty about it. I do this every year: I work really hard to understand things and get the big picture and then when it comes time to study for exams or do major assignments I just can't commit. I suck. I mean the paper is ok, but it could be sooo much better. And so I don't think my mark is going to reflect my level of understanding of multivariate statistics. I really do suck. What is it about evaluation that creates so much anxiety that one just can't focus? I mean really...well, I guess I can't COMPLETELY blame the anxiety...I AM kind of a perfectionist.
Speaking of being a perfectionist, the Webmaster job application deadline was today. I made it. Barely. And man was I stressed over it. I mean I wanted to do something to showcase all my Web, design and programming skills, but of course I really didn't have enuf time so I ended up spending more time on some things than others...with the result that the portfolio Web site LOOKS nice, but the showcasing of my work is a bit lame... I basically put a little screen shot of the project, a blurb underneath and then icons to indicate what I used to develop the project. It's a pretty good idea, but the screen shots are a bit small and I didn't have time to make them links to full size items...and the blurbs I kind of dashed off....which is lame. Polish is so important. On the other hand, Smiley was like "Relax, you don't even need this job"...which is true...sigh...I get WAY too caught up in doing a good job of things. Actually, I just get anxious about people associating me and my work. I mean I want me to look good so I want my work to look good. And if I'm not confident about my work, how can I be confident about me?
Anyway, the other news is that I won another scholarship. I can't keep it cuz I got a SSHRC, but I do get to put it on my CV where it will look very pretty.
Today and yesterday were stressful but good. I am finally finished my stats paper. Phew. But I am feeling extremely guilty about it. I do this every year: I work really hard to understand things and get the big picture and then when it comes time to study for exams or do major assignments I just can't commit. I suck. I mean the paper is ok, but it could be sooo much better. And so I don't think my mark is going to reflect my level of understanding of multivariate statistics. I really do suck. What is it about evaluation that creates so much anxiety that one just can't focus? I mean really...well, I guess I can't COMPLETELY blame the anxiety...I AM kind of a perfectionist.
Speaking of being a perfectionist, the Webmaster job application deadline was today. I made it. Barely. And man was I stressed over it. I mean I wanted to do something to showcase all my Web, design and programming skills, but of course I really didn't have enuf time so I ended up spending more time on some things than others...with the result that the portfolio Web site LOOKS nice, but the showcasing of my work is a bit lame... I basically put a little screen shot of the project, a blurb underneath and then icons to indicate what I used to develop the project. It's a pretty good idea, but the screen shots are a bit small and I didn't have time to make them links to full size items...and the blurbs I kind of dashed off....which is lame. Polish is so important. On the other hand, Smiley was like "Relax, you don't even need this job"...which is true...sigh...I get WAY too caught up in doing a good job of things. Actually, I just get anxious about people associating me and my work. I mean I want me to look good so I want my work to look good. And if I'm not confident about my work, how can I be confident about me?
Anyway, the other news is that I won another scholarship. I can't keep it cuz I got a SSHRC, but I do get to put it on my CV where it will look very pretty.
posted by Camel at 11:38 p.m.
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