Tuesday, January 04, 2005

what's the point

So, I come home to hang out with my mom and she's been sitting in her room, or the living room all day smoking and ignoring me. And then she took a shower for an hour and a half. AND WHY ON EARTH DOES SHE KEEP HER SHAMPOO AND CONDITIONER IN HER BEDROOM AND NOT THE F^$#&^#$&*^(#&*! BATHROOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love my mom. I do. But what is the point of me coming out here when all I do is read and she sits around and smokes. I could understand if she had work to do. But she NEVER does anything. Or if she does, it is cooking or cleaning. Now I know it takes work to keep a house, but believe me, it doesn't look that good.

This is a stupid waste of my time. And I just don't know how to be patient with her anymore. I mean I just don't really like her as a person. I find her stagnant, boring and lacking in any efficacy. So what the heck am I supposed to do?

She's my mother. It's not like I can just give up on her. ARG!