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So I did a bad thing last night. I kissed someone that I maybe shouldn't have. I kissed Pop's friend. I kissed him with the condition he not tell Pop and it was fairly innocent since he is leaving town for pretty much forever at the end of the month and I really have no interest in anything beyond that one kiss. But I feel like having kissed Explosive would change Pop's opinion of me in some negative way. I mean, I wanted Explosive to kiss me and I am glad he did, it was most enjoyable, but given the chance to take it back, I probably would not do it again.

On the one hand, I feel really guilty. Like this past summer with Big T and Little m happened again. But it's not the same, on the other hand: Pop and I have no official commitment or unofficial for that matter. And in neither case did I really do anythign wrong, but I can't change the fact that I feel a twinge of guilt.

I don't think that it matters, really. Even if Pop finds out, it was just one kiss. Just a mutual attraction expressed. Nothing further. Pop gets so much of my attention that roomie has taken to telling everyone that we are gonna be married someday. So he really shouldn't be complaining, not that he would...